I think it was Christmas...

I don't know where this Holiday season went. One minute it was all around us, now it's nearly over. One minute it was my first day selling cupcakes, now it's many more days in and the safety net that the kiosk has provided is being yanked out from under me. I don't know how it happened. I blinked and it flew by. Truth be told, I'm terrified. I don't deal well with the unknown. I like the security of knowing when my next paycheck will come and exactly how much it will be. I like knowing that I will have work tomorrow...and the next day...and the day after that. If I think about it too long, the not knowing part makes me a little sick to my stomach, BUT I've come to far to give up now. I've dreamed about this for too long to give up so soon. I've worked too hard to give up so easily.

Thinking back to those early mornings in the kitchen, all alone with the radio turned up and powdered sugar everywhere, I knew that this is what I want to do. I could bake all day and be perfectly happy. The current conditions aren't ideal. I'd love to have my own kitchen with all my own appliances and space for my ingredients to stay unpacked all the time, but the kitchen I'm in now is nice. It's clean, the people are friendly and, let's face it, it's close to a grocery store so I don't have to drive far on those mornings when I forget that I ran out of flour the day before. The kiosk wasn't in the best location for cupcake sales, but I got my name out there. I met great people who left me inspired to be better. I just have to find ways to continue to be inspired and motivated. I read a quote by Zig Ziglar once that I think is very true, “People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily." I am working of finding a new motivation everyday. Some is motivation is monetary, some is superficial, and those days when I can't seem to find anything, I think to myself that when this all works out I'll be one of the lucky ones. One of the few people who can say, "I have my dream job."
I'm working on some new flavors, you know, post-holiday but its still winter flavors. I'll let you know when they're ready. I have a show lined up for the first part of February and our favorite ranchers asked us to set up another mini kiosk for Valentine's Day. I have lots of ideas and I good things are on the horizon, I can just feel it.